Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Some days, i'm just mad

I quietly coast along everyday, my work and my lifestyle choices have left me with very few opportunities to interact with people. I kinda dont mind that - i have always been a loner on some level. And then there are days, when even the few conversations i have are unbearable. Today, a lady called. I dont want to go into the details but the bottom line is, she needed my help. She calls me and tears my name apart...she says "hi saae...nnn..dah riy aa....???" I say "umm....you mean (insert my desi name here)"...and shes says "oh yea right whatever". No apologies, nothing. And she needed my help.

Another person at work calls me...she has a problem she needs to solve and essentially needs to go to half the people in my company to get the problem resolved. So she calls me, the first easy target that popped up in her mind, gives me a big lecture and then hangs up on me without saying as much as a "bye" or a "thankyou"

Sometimes i just dont get people. All through my life, i was taught to be nice. I genuinely try to be nice, not because i crave for approval or for appearances, but because this is my religion - love. In the material world, in my day to day life, this niceness has got me nowhere. I dont really want to get anywhere, but i guess it would be nice if people had a little respect?

I guess i have not spiritually evolved into a supremely composed being, who stays calm no matter what. I guess that is why the big caveat is thrown in the Gita - do your thing, but expect nothing in return. I am rambling now and better stop. Some days, i am just mad.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

Assurance – its not just you
You meet 2 kinds of people
1) People who take you for granted – expect u to drop everything you have so u can help them
2) People who smiles at you while they dump a whole lot of work they are supposed to do

And this is when you question your believes. ! am I too nice, cant I say NO.
Unfortunately its not just you, I deal with it everyday – it’s a learning curve to give crap back, I have started working on it now

Su said...

A very nice post. Yup. There are a lot of people who don't give a F*** about anyone but themselves.

Most people are vultures. These days, noone will remember the 150 times you've been nice to them. They wait for the 151'th time you screwed up.

Anonymous said...

The Gita says so exactly because people behave the way you've described, results dont come up to your expectations......
evolving into a supremely composed being is a lot of hard work.....but worth trying!!

Su said...

@ Anonymous I am mad that you only post comments on your daughter's blog and not mine

Humph

Anonymous said...

This guy walks in with some weird problem. I actual made a dozen phone calls and found the right person to help him and then I call him on his mobile to tell him the plan of action. He just says "ok"!!?? Is that it???

I was fuming.

Some bizzare coincidence that night I watched an episode of SCRUBS. The hero,a doctor feels exactly the same after a patient treats him like that.So his best friend says,"Do u thank your dust bin man for collecting your rubbish every week,dont you just take him for granted?"

I still havent thanked our dustbin guys ...

Lazy Blogger said...

well....sure, our janitors need to be thanked...but for all the years we spent studying and working, especially you as a doctor, shouldnt you be treated with a tad more gratefulness?